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- Jeff

School, work, school, work.  Does it get any better?  Oh yes, it does.  I make an ass of myself, I dream about things that never could happen.  Oh, and then I have my teacher tell me she won't look at an assignment that is due the following week.  Excellent.  Prove to me you're the worst teacher in the world.

However, it is nice to be up and down all the time.  Why else would God have blessed me with joy, despair, hope, disdain, depression, anger and an obnoxious and surreal satisfaction with self.  I'm assuming so that I could experience the full gamut and truly be able to say that I lived.

- Jeff

I'm not really sure how much I like my schedule.  Yes, I get weekends off.  But in between working and schooling I have absolutely no time to do anything Tuesday, Wednesday or Thursday.  Well, that's not true, I have between 3 and 6 on Wednesday to do stuff.  And after 3 on Friday.  I guess it isn't really that bad.  But it makes me feel better to complain a bit.

I'm trying to get ahead in my classes so when it comes time that I'm tired of doing all this work for school I will no longer actually have any of it to do.  It should work out really well, assuming I can get this stuff done.  I've got a great start on a few classes already.

Girls annoy me.  I'm so glad to have good friends like Tina, and Nathan, and Everett and Andy that make it not so hard.  I've also realized that contrary to what I think I do have a few girls that I can ask out.  Now just to find the time.  Friday?  I think so.

- Jeff

I keep telling myself I'd rather have my heart broken a thousand times than I would like to live another year alone.  It's been about a year since I really dated anyone.  It's been closer to a  year and a half since I've had my heart broken.  Heights of emotion are definitely more fun than the slow and mediocre status quo.

No matter how much I tell myself this, it's not true.  A thousand times is rough.  Maybe a hundred.  It'd help if I didn't feel so ashamed of myself everytime I start something I have no desire to finish.  It breaks my heart even more when there's something there and I won't act upon it because it's a horrible time to.  Life goes on.

I'm definitely mediocre and loving it.  I work at a gas station, go to a community college and live at home.  I have three delightful girls to come home to, 3, 1 1/2 and 8 months.  I love my mother more than anyone because of how strong of a woman she is, and my sister is slowly proving how strong she is as well.  My bro in law is a chore, but I deal with him because I have to.  I hope I'm not a bad person for admitting how I feel.

I also have reevaluated my friends.  I don't like my friends who are emotionally unavailable.  I don't care for the needy people either.  I'm doing my best to avoid those people.  I want them to be less of a key role in my life.  I'm replacing them with the healthy relationships that I'm simply not excersizing.  It feels good, and my soul notices the difference.  It's much more refreshing to know good people are there for you.

I tried to write a song at work the other day.  It was some silly rhyming, and I pretended to make a melody.  Turns out I stole it from Incubus.  I wonder what my voice truly is.  I need to find a song, and then not imitate whoever it is singing it.  I have a good voice, and I think I have some style behind it.  I just don't quite know what it is.

I wish I was a good guy.  I think I'm the hardest person to date.  Like with girls I date, I either like them to be really good girls, or really bad girls.  That way I can justify the relationship by saying this is someone I want to spend my life with, or I can say at least I'm having fun.  It's way easier to seperate that.  The good girl who wants to be bad is complicated.  I corrupt her, then feel awful about that.  There's no winning there because she's not fun, nor is the relationship healthy or should it last.  It's just a no win.  I swear off those girls as of now.

I'm done for now.  I love Andy Musolf.  And Matt Everett.

- Jeff

I apologize for leaving you alone for so long.  I haven't been updating because I've been busy.  Really.  A little action on the side, maybe a date or two here shortly.  Finally, there are some girls around. 

I LOVE DOUGHNUTS!

- Jeff